I didn't even think I was pregnant. I took the test because I'd never taken a pregnancy test before and thought I should practice! I came home from a trip to Toronto for the NKOTB concert (which was awesome btw) with a full bladder and thought "hey, why not give it a try now?". SO, I peed on the stick! I didn't even look at the legend to see what would indicate pregnant or not pregnant because I "knew" I wasn't pregnant... I mean, nothing had changed!
Obviously my mommy brain disability started as soon as the egg was fertilized as I had quite a few indicators that things had, in fact, changed. For two weeks before I took the test I had bad cramping in my lower belly, constipation (sorry, TMI) and insomnia. Three things I have rarely experienced. Two nights before I took the test, I was up the entire night at my Mom's house in T.O... I even woke up my Mom like a 2 year old asking her if she had something to help me sleep. THANKFULLY, I was thinking and didn't take any drugs but instead my Mom gave me a shot of brandy - apparently back in her nursing days that used to do it for the old folks! ha ha ha. My Mom's response immediately was "You're pregnant!" but we tossed that theory aside when she checked my belly and didn't feel any signs of little sweetie.
Back to the test... as I said, didn't check the legend. So when the plus sign came up right away, all I was thinking was "holy crap, what a poor design... what kind of test gives you a plus sign when you're NOT pregnant?!?! What happens if you are pregnant - streamers and confetti spew out the end of the stick?". Then I looked down and saw it... plus sign = pregnant. WHAT?!?! WHAT?!?! I mean, as much as you try to get pregnant, it's a totally different thing when it actually happens! So I did what any other respectable, grown-up woman would do in my situation and called my Mom who immediately said "go pee on another stick!". ha ha ha. Four "sticks", two different brands of tests and a google search on "false positives in pregnancy tests" later and we believed it. In case it isn't obvious - there is basically no such thing as a false positive on a pregnancy test (and definitely not on four of them).
I can't believe it's been one year. When I think about the excitement and fear that accompanied the realization that I was pregnant... I was a completely different person than I am today. I had no experience with babies. I'd never been one of those "got to hold 'um" type of girls who always seem to know what to do. People would ask me "are you ready for a baby?" and my response was always "I'm prepared for a baby, but how the heck can you be ready for a baby when you have never had a baby before?". Stupid question :p I don't even think you can be ready for a baby when you've already had one - they are all so different! But here I am. I look at Jane and it's hard to believe that she grew from a tiny cell inside my body! She's so perfect and beautiful and funny - I never could have imagined her in those first few days after "passing the test".
I can't believe it's been a year...