Last Monday was one year since I found out I was pregnant. I'll never forget that moment - shock, excitement, anxiety, joy, worry, disbelief. Dan and I had only been trying for a month, it was a first go and BAM, success! I didn't even think I was pregnant. I took the test because I'd never taken a pregnancy test before and thought I should practice! I came home from a trip to Toronto for the NKOTB concert (which was awesome btw) with a full bladder and thought "hey, why not give it a try now?". SO, I peed on the stick! I didn't even look at the legend to see what would indicate pregnant or not pregnant because I "knew" I wasn't pregnant... I mean, nothing had changed!
Obviously my mommy brain disability started as soon as the egg was fertilized as I had quite a few indicators that things had, in fact, changed. For two weeks before I took the test I had bad cramping in my lower belly, constipation (sorry, TMI) and insomnia. Three things I have rarely experienced. Two nights before I took the test, I was up the entire night at my Mom's house in T.O... I even woke up my Mom like a 2 year old asking her if she had something to help me sleep. THANKFULLY, I was thinking and didn't take any drugs but instead my Mom gave me a shot of brandy - apparently back in her nursing days that used to do it for the old folks! ha ha ha. My Mom's response immediately was "You're pregnant!" but we tossed that theory aside when she checked my belly and didn't feel any signs of little sweetie.
Back to the test... as I said, didn't check the legend. So when the plus sign came up right away, all I was thinking was "holy crap, what a poor design... what kind of test gives you a plus sign when you're NOT pregnant?!?! What happens if you are pregnant - streamers and confetti spew out the end of the stick?". Then I looked down and saw it... plus sign = pregnant. WHAT?!?! WHAT?!?! I mean, as much as you try to get pregnant, it's a totally different thing when it actually happens! So I did what any other respectable, grown-up woman would do in my situation and called my Mom who immediately said "go pee on another stick!". ha ha ha. Four "sticks", two different brands of tests and a google search on "false positives in pregnancy tests" later and we believed it. In case it isn't obvious - there is basically no such thing as a false positive on a pregnancy test (and definitely not on four of them).
I can't believe it's been one year. When I think about the excitement and fear that accompanied the realization that I was pregnant... I was a completely different person than I am today. I had no experience with babies. I'd never been one of those "got to hold 'um" type of girls who always seem to know what to do. People would ask me "are you ready for a baby?" and my response was always "I'm prepared for a baby, but how the heck can you be ready for a baby when you have never had a baby before?". Stupid question :p I don't even think you can be ready for a baby when you've already had one - they are all so different! But here I am. I look at Jane and it's hard to believe that she grew from a tiny cell inside my body! She's so perfect and beautiful and funny - I never could have imagined her in those first few days after "passing the test".
I can't believe it's been a year...
Jen :)
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Yeah, with my first pregnancy I took like 4 tests. I guess I needed one that said "You're pregnant, fool."
LOL!
Such an exciting day for sure! I, as well was dumbfounded when I took the test and it came back positive...I had also just stopped the pill the month before. That night I didn't sleep a wink (I was so excited and nervous), as my bright idea was to re-do the test the next morning to get the "most accurate" result...so funny-if the first one was + in the afternoon, than the a.m. one definitely would be as well! Too funny:)
Awww..that's so very exciting. I remember my "find out day" too. It's definitely an adventure! The most exciting adventure yet!
:-)
I didn't find out until I was 12 weeks along (irregular periods) even though all the signs were there. I guess I was in denial!
What a difference a year makes, huh?
Very exciting. We found out we were pg on our 2nd wedding anniversary. I now always have 2 things to celebrate on that day.
I can't believe it's been a year!
"Step by Step, ooh Baby"
The pregnancy test was all a part of the journey...and I went through many of them.
So glad to have you as a new member in our Aspiring Writers Group on MBC.
Aww - that is so sweet and funny and I'm glad you got to share it with your mom. I wsa shocked when the nurse at the hospital handed me my baby girl and said goodbye - I was like "Are you sure?"
It's all good though!
Swati
(from aspiring writers group)
What a great story! You told it so well and I was riveted the whole time. It made me think about all the amazing emotions I felt the first time I found out I was pregnant. For me, I really didn't think I was either. I had a raging UTI and though we were trying, we hadn't been for long. The medication that the dr. prescribed was not for pregger mommies. So my husband said we should get a test, just to make sure. I thought he was silly but when the test came up positive I almost died. I was happy, thrilled, and elated, but completely shocked. I had no idea. It was such a great moment.
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