Alright Y'all - I owe you some serious nonsense. Life has been insanity lately - between work, being sick, traveling and, oh yeah, being a MOM, blogging has unfortunately taken a back burner. So, here's the last month or so in review...
What I'm wearing
Size 4 or 6! Believe it or not, and you know me, I am definitely NOT bragging, but I weigh less than I did pre-pregnancy now. And there's absolutely no reason for it. I just finished off a bag of sour patch kids and some "mini" chocolates. I think it's just pure busy-ness that's prevented me from gaining weight and allowed me to lose weight. At work, when things are ideal, I'm running my a** off. At home, I'm running my a** off. I still don't exercise. F. I suck at that. I keep thinking I want to take another running room course, and it might just work out in the next month or so.
What I'm watching
Currently... the Bachelor Pad. First time watching - no idea how long it's been on but I was hooked within 30 seconds. Priority numero uno is True Blood though. Dear God can Sookie just get over nasty Bill and get with the were or Eric. Seriously. I realize the two are a couple in real life but I'm over it. Next on my favs list for the summer - an unexpected CANADIAN hit - Rookie Blue. I'll admit, the first few episodes I watched cause nothing else was on... kind of lame, awkward acting, etc. Now. I am insanely obsessed. If you watch - holy MAC - that chemistry between Mcnally and Swarek. PHEW! Insanity. I just wish the entire show was them going back and forth. Other than those, I stick to TMZ which makes me pee my pants daily and that's about it. Looking forward to the return of all my favs in the fall - just hoping they don't can all the shows I got hooked on last year - I hate it when they do that. At least finish the freakin' show off by letting the two people get together in the end - basically every show I get hooked on has the couple who can't be together but secretly want each other storyline.
What I'm worrying about
Everything as usual. This is totally corn-bally but I love Jane so much that it is scary. Obviously, I enjoy every minute with her and I'm truly not the type of person to let worry overtake my life. But, at least daily, my mind wanders to "what if" or I have one of those horrible daydreams I've mentioned a bazillion times and it's just so freakin' stressful! ha ha ha. How do Moms do it? How am I going to let her leave the house on her own, go to school, go somewhere alone, leave for university... does it get easier? Even when I leave Jane with people I trust completely (my sister, daycare, my mom), I envision them leaving a gate open or her getting away from them and getting lost or getting taken or getting hurt. AHHHHH. Am I crazy? Like I said, my mind's not going like this all the time. But it probably is, I'm just not conscious of it. In all honestly, for the same reason I posted that horrible video the other day, I am thankful for the worry because it keeps me on my toes. Obviously there are times when we slip up - we forget to close the gate and find our babes halfway up the stairs (yeah, that was me, I'll admit it), we turn our backs for a second when we shouldn't, etc. But I'd rather be super aware than ignorant... that's just me.
What I'm waiting for
Nothing. I am being 2000% honest when I say that I am enjoying every minute of every day right now! Having kids changes your perspective - yeah, sometimes I still have my moment where I whine about stupid things but mostly, no. I am just happy to have a healthy family, to be happy, to have lots of time to spend with my daughter. That's it. I guess as far as stupid stuff goes - I'm waiting for the Backstreet Boys concert next week - WOOHOO. ha ha ha. Who doesn't want to relive their adolescence for a night?!?! C'mon! Get down! Get down! And move it all around! :p
What I'm dreading.
Having to clean the house tomorrow. Seriously considering hiring a cleaning lady to come in bi-weekly. It's just not worth it anymore. Keeping the house tidy is no biggie. But bathrooms and baseboards? I'd rather exercise and that's saying a lot! My only saving grace is my trusty Clorox wipes. I am loyal to Clorox until the end of days. They were my best friend when Jane was little and cleaning time consisted of the five seconds I was in the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. I am not loyal to much as far as products go - I'm loyal to the cheapest brand, I guess. But I stick with Clorox because I feel indebted to them. ha ha ha. Seriously. Isn't that sad! And because they last forever. I used to see them pre-baby and think, geez, $4 for stupid wipes... expensive. I can get two bottles of concentrated cleaner for that that will last me a year. Now, $4 is nothing. The canister lasts me at least a month and it's worth every extra penny. Sanity is priceless.
What I'm working on
A job change. I know, I just got a new job a few months ago. Well, life works in strange ways. A job came up with a company I had connected with back in the Spring and it is a great opportunity and definitely fits more easily with our lifestyle and our schedules. My current job was shifts, days/nights/weekends. I didn't think it would be so difficult but it really has been a coordination nightmare. Dan's been in and out of town for sports and work and it's just been a mess. I hate being anything but a great, easy, hard working employee. So, to be a pain in the a** because of scheduling, was hard on me. Regardless, I'm a firm "what's meant to be..." chick. So, I'm excited about this new opportunity.
What I need to do now
Go to bed. It's almost 11pm and I should have been asleep hours ago. Jane's got this new "schedule" (I put it in quotations in hopes that it's more of a phase than a schedule) where she wakes up at 5 or 5:30am. It's awesome. And, by awesome, I mean throw the pillow over your head and ask "WHY GOD WHY???" awesome. I don't know why 6am is so much easier or why that extra 30-60 minutes means the difference between acceptable and excruciating but that's the way it is. Everything gets screwed by that extra 30-60 mins.... I eat breakfast at 6am. I'm starving again at 8am. I'm ready to go back to bed by 9am. It's a mess.
Ok, I have to stop now. As requested, here are some pics from our recent trip. Believe it or not, we have like no photos from the wedding. I'm sure the prof pics will have a few of me walking down the aisle with Jane but by the time we got back to the reception, Jane was asleep and that was that! The pics of Jane and Lucy are pre-rehearsal dinner - matching dresses of course! They were hilarious playing together on the bed. Obviously, the beautiful bride is my bestest friend in the whole world and she was literally the most stunning thing I'd ever seen in my life!